Sunday, December 31, 2006
@ 9:19 AM
☞ Bored
♪ -
My computer died. Currently using my brother's to blog.
I'm going to the airport in 20 hours. Flying to Hong Kong at 0640.
Dear bought me lots of chocolates yesterday. Thank you very much.
I'll be in HK for 5 days. I'm gonna miss him so so so much.
When I come back, let's make oreo cheesecake, take neoprints and watch Deathnote 2 ok? You still owe me a mudpie hehe.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
@ 10:08 PM
☞ Happy
♪ -
Hehe.
Friday, December 29, 2006
@ 10:09 PM
☞ Cold
♪ -
Saw a glimpse of the sun today. Wow. Finally, after 1 to 2 weeks of rain.
Went to meet Bing Yu to return her autograph book. Still couldn't believe she'd be flying in just 3 - 4 hours. Went out with mom today, in preparation of the Hong Kong trip, which is just 2 days away. Hope I buy lots and lots there heh. Gonna miss him lots, since it's the first time that we wouldn't see each other for consecutive 5 days.
I had cut my hair yesterday, and I happy to say I don't look terrible, but sad to say, I don't look astounding either. I'd expected better from Ben. :(
Shopping ListPumps
Accessories
Tunic
More shoes
More clothes
More of everything!
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
@ 11:32 PM
☞ Cold
♪ -
The internet connection sucks today.
"Slow Internet access to overseas websites due to earthquake in Taiwan
Singapore, 27 December 2006 -- Customers may experience slow Internet access to overseas websites. This is due to an earthquake that occurred in Taiwan on 26 December 2006. We are working closely with our submarine cable consortium members to restore services as soon as possible. We apologise for any inconvenience caused.
"This was posted on the Singtel website.
It was raining like nobody's business again. Yesterday's was much worse than today. Hope it won't rain tomorrow, even though I know it will.
Monday, December 25, 2006
@ 10:49 PM
☞ Thoughtful
♪ X-Japan / Longing (On guitar)
Did not sleep well at all last night.
Plently of reasons to explain for this.
One, my mom was coughing badly (because she was stubborn and refused to see a doctor).
Two, heard crying of a child and was scaring myself to death. Hell, what young child would be awake at 3 a.m. and crying at the corridor?
Three, the big distance between my parents when they sleep bothered me.
Ever since the incident last year, they had not been on good terms with each other. They seldom talk to each other, and when they do, they'll give each other some form of 'attitude'. Sometimes, I'll become the middleman of these 2. Yes, they do go out with each other, but it's only a show, I know it. They may look ok physically, but they're not emotionally paired.
They'll speak bad about each other behind each other's back to me. I'm forced to absorb all of these and try to not side with any of each. I couldn't side, both are my parents.
I don't know why they can't make up with each other, afterall they had been so close for 20 plus years. What's about the incident that it's so unforgiving?
I know I'm not making any sense at all right now.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
@ 9:16 AM
☞ Feels ok, but...
♪ BoA* / Last Christmas
I'm still not entirely OK yet. It seems like my digestive system has became a straight tube instead of stomach, intestines or what not. Once I drink water or eat anything, something will be forced out immediately, through the ass, of course. I'm not vomiting anymore, thank goodness for that. 2 boring days at home, and today would be the third day. Except, yesterday was not so boring afterall.
Dear had seen the worst of me, yet he's not repelled. He came to visit me yeterday and brought with him his Lord of the Rings Trilogy so that we can watch together. He cheered me up so much with his bubbly character that I've forgotten the need to go to the toilet to expel those nasty stuff. We watched LOTR 1 and 2 throughout the whole afternoon. Basically, we do no really understand what's going on in the movie for there's no subtitles heh, we just know who's the good guys and the bad guys.
52kg now, lost 1kg from my diet, and 1.5kg from food poisoning. Wonder whether food poisoning is a good thing or a bad thing ha!
Gambatte digestive system!
Friday, December 22, 2006
@ 6:29 PM
☞ Sick
♪ Kiroro / キロロのうた
My digestive system is rejecting all food inputs. Whenever I drink water or eat some porridge, I'll feel like vomiting or pooping or peeing. And poop's not like poop, it's like pee. I wonder will I be dehydrated.
Am craving for some chocolate cake, or more specifically, MUDPIE! Talking about cakes, I doubt I can even eat a piece of logcake for Christmas as promised with Dear. Such a disappointment. I was really looking forward to it. I hope logcakes will still be avaliable after I recover.
Hope I'll be able to eat dinner afterwards.
@ 10:09 AM
☞ Nausea
♪ -
Yesterday was one of the worst day of my life.
Woke up in the morning as usual, but stomach was feeling a bit queasy. Ignored stomach and went to Dear's home.
However on the MRT, the queasiness became worse and started feeling pretty cold. Upon arriving at his home, I jumped into his bed and got up just to vomit gastric juices.
My temperature soared to 38 degree celsius, smelling food made me even more sick.
Finally decided to get home. Upon arriving home, more gastric juices came out.
Dear accompanied me while I slept and woke me up at around 6 to see the clinic's doctor.
Managed to walk to second floor, but was feeling dizzy and was sweating a lot. I couldn't see my way while walking, hence I have to squat down.
And the unexpected happened. I pooped in my shorts. Lots. Stinks. And I couldn't walk anymore, I only can sit there. I asked Dear to call for help, and luckily the auntie I knew passed by at that moment and helped me out.
My mom came and Dear helped me back home, where I cleaned myself.
Dear accompanied me till 8 p.m, until my mom came home and took me to the doctor.
Woke up just now to vomit yesterday's dinner. It's all black and green. Yucks.
Hope I get better soon for Christmas.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
@ 11:32 PM
☞ Cold
♪ -
F*cking weather.
3 consecutive rainy days. To think that the news reported that it'll be 5 consecutive rainy days.
This weather is making drying of hair even harder for me.
...Watched Midnight Sun today. It's a Japanese movie about a girl with an unusual illness called XP. This illness caused the girl to live in darkness because UV rays might kill her. Thus she only goes out at night to the MRT station nearby to sing for nobody in particular. And in the morning, she'd observe a surfer boy from her window. By chance they met and the boy fell in love with her, and her ability to express herself through the songs she composed and sang. However she might die soon because somehow this illness affected her nervous system and the boy want to fulfil her dreams of becoming a singer. He began to work hard at yatch cleaning and managed to save a sum of money for her personal album. Nonetheless, the girl died after the album was recorded, leaving behind lots of memories.
I expected it to be a tear-jerker like Windstruck, I foresaw that I would be crying buckets. But I didn't, to my disappointment.
Monday, December 18, 2006
@ 7:47 PM
☞ Full
♪ BoA* / Winter Love
Heh, made this gif yesterday. Almost forgotten how to make this, phew.
Today's the same as yesterday, rain was pouring like nobody's business, the skies dark and gloomy and the surroundings humid. I dislike rain. I don't like my feet to get all icky, wet and muddy, I don't like my skin to feel moist and sticky due to the rain, I don't like my hair and scalp to associate with the rainwater. During rainy days, I would prefer to stay at home, being dry and warm.
When clouds darken, so will my face. I dread walking in the rain in my slippers. I've forgotten how it feel like walking in the rain in my shoes, perhaps I'd enjoyed it. I remember vaguely that I loved playing in the rain during my secondary school days, daring my friends to uncovered areas despite wearing the thin white school blouse and skirt.
Perhaps if I'd wore shoes, I wouldn't dislike rain as much as now, would I?
I know this is an useless entry. The rain is getting on my nerves.
Friday, December 15, 2006
@ 8:39 PM
☞ Disappointed
♪ Kagrra, / 桜花爛漫
Sighhhh. My ITP placement:
A measly amount of $440 per month, and Sheng Long will be getting $650. What a BIG difference. Almost 1.5 times of our
pay allowance.
And where the hell is this Peninsula Plaza?
Thursday, December 14, 2006
@ 11:46 PM
☞ Happy
♪ -
Got these 2 babes at Lafone.
The shopping 'spree' started when we alighted from Habourfront station and into the toilet, since the urgent business came up all of a sudden. After finishing the business and walking out, a pushcart full of watches stood in front of us. Recalling that I wanted a crystal watch (refer to the entry from last Sunday), I pulled my poor boy and examined the watches and SAW THE ONE WHICH IS EXACTLY THE SAME AS THE ONE I SAW IN BUGIS FOR $12! (But there's only one avaliable in Bugis and it's dirty and ick) It's being sold for $25 here. omgwtfwth
After pondering for a long time, I decided to go through Vivo first before deciding whether to purchase that watch a not. And so instead of carrying out the original agenda of finding a new jacket for him, we went ahead with mine first.
Passed by Lafone and my dear pointed out one of the 2 babes. Sigh, I then realised that he understood me so well already, he knew my tastes and preferences. I'm a bit guilty on that. So I've got both watches at $10 each.
2 watches $20 VS 1 watch $25.
I suddenly recalled what Mic said before. "Accounting ruins our lives." In the past, we won't even bother to calculate about the cost and what not. But now, we're so picky to the extend that we'll even calculate out the price of 1 cookie when buying 2 cookies at $xx vs 10 cookies at $xx.
Ah, and so we continued with our agenda, and my dear finally bought a nice and plain jacket from Nike. Damn I'm so jealous of him, he looks good in almost everything! =)
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
@ 10:06 PM
☞ Sad
♪ SHIN / 死了都要爱
(Inserts lengthy explainations and rants here)
And so in the end, he's not going Hong Kong after all. =(
Getting fatter. Wasn't following the diet for the past 2 days.
I'm gonna miss you. =(
Sunday, December 10, 2006
@ 11:44 PM
☞ Uncertain
♪ -
Dieting Day 6Breakfast: Unfinished fishball noodle soup (tons of noodles left)
Lunch: Fried egg burger (?) from Han's
Dinner: Yong Tau Foo soup and half a soursop dessert
Went to Levi's with my brother, his gang of girl friends and Dear. Bought a pair of jeans at the expense of my brother even though his membership card's lost heh. Left him and his gang of girl friends (I suspect one of them is his current girlfriend) and was wanting a lunch. However, Dear pulled me into Silver Corner and began pointing out the couple rings avaliable. We've always wanted a new pair as the old one was so simple and we kept getting scratched by the old rings as it has sort of square edges...? Anyway, the price was pretty reasonable and thus we have a new pair of shiny couple rings. =)
The shinng duo.Went to National Library to study Taxation after that. Before we knew it, it was already 6 something.
We scoured through Bugis Junction and Bugis Street in search of a decent jacket (for him) and a cheap crystal watch (for me). However our search had been fruitless and we returned defeated to the foodcourt for dinner.
Went home after dinner, as it was already nine forty plus. At Outram, I think the entire population of Indians/Bagladash in Singapore squeezed into the train. Luckily Dear was there heh. =)
I've no idea what to write next, my life has been exceptionally ordinary these few days.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
@ 10:08 PM
☞ *Grins like an idiot*
♪ ナイトメア / 月の光、うつつの夢
Dieting Day 5Breakfast: Unfinished prawn noodle soup
Lunch: Tuna sandwich
Dinner: 猪肝粥 w/ papaya milk
Yes! Today's a rain-less day, just as I hope for yesterday. Today my sweetie pie came to my home to study, gave me lunch and gave me lots of love heh. Went for the jog, but 因为肚子不争气, kept giving me pains and cramps, I had to stop after only 4 rounds round the track (1.6 km). Sigh. Stupid stomach.
I think I have to thank my honey for what I am today. Thanks to him, I feel more confident of myself. When I looked at my pictures from primary and secondary school, I will think: WHAT WAS I THINKING? What's with the nerdy looks, long skirt and UGHLY hair?!?!
I was still UGH during the first few months of polytechnic life, I mean, just look at the admin card! Then on 3rd August, he took me for a haircut at Storm and changed my was-cut-by-an-auntie hair to something more acceptable. From then on, it changed my looks, my confidence, and his view of me. I know he didn't viewed me as 'cute' before the cut (even though I am before and after HA!), but after the cut he kept complimenting me. =X
He encouraged me to DIY dye my hair even though I was not so confident of the results, plus, my crown of hair was/is thinning real bad. He said, "if you never try, you'll never know." And so I did. The results were better than expected and poof! My hair changed its style and colour.
This is only a small portion of me he'd changed, there are lots more.
He who changes everything, my world, my life.
I love you lots, I really do, not because you changed me, it's because you entered my life and made my world more beautiful.
Friday, December 08, 2006
@ 6:00 PM
☞ Happy
♪ -
Dieting Day 4Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: Sandwiches and doughnut
Dinner: Normal home-cooked dinner with rice and such
Whee! Today's Friday. Goodbye weekdays hello weekends! My order from Papergirlsshop arrived today! I'm happy to say that they all fits! But I still gotta continue with my dieting plan.
Tomorrow's a Saturday, and once again I hope, IT WON'T RAIN AGAIN TOMORROW! I want to try and see whether I can run the whole of 2.4 km without stopping in the middle to walk/rest.
My Dear just called me and told me that his mom did some funny things again. He said his mom called Lucus and Lucus told her that he can do his ITP in year 3, but that means he'll graduated later. This is WTF, postpone his ITP for a year just because of a holiday?! Now I believe he's in the process of conflict in the office.
And not only this, Joey called him too, which is WTH. Heh, don't worry Dear, if you're reading this, I'm not jealous or anything, it's just that she's unbelieveably slut. I'm not slandering or anything, but please, for goodness sake, how 'un-slut' and decent can this girl be if she sends a half-naked picture of herself in only bra and panties showing her airport figure to your boyfriend?
Ah, perhaps I shouldn't be joyful now, I almost forgot that there are 2 papers next week.
*Dies*
Thursday, December 07, 2006
@ 11:14 PM
☞ Tired
♪ -
Dieting Day 3Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: Yong tau foo soup
Dinner: Sandwiches
I'm really tired today. No mood to blog. Have to f*ck myself for wasting $12.90.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
@ 11:10 PM
☞ Sleepy
♪ -
Dieting Day 2Ate a slice of bread for breakfast, Tom Yum fish soup for lunch and normal home-cooked dinner for dinner. Dinner seemed heavenly. =(
Recently, my SO is troubled by some minor things. He's caught between ITP and his mom. The story goes like this, ITP at end of year 2, we all know it, even though his mom knows about it, went ahead and booked the tour and paid. Now Tommy says that application for leave due to hoildays will be rejected, abscence without LOA for 2 days means 6 days off, meaning the attendence would be less than 90%, which in turn, will make him fail ITP.
And so today, he went back and tried to reason with his mom again, telling her that it's impossible to take holiday leave and wanted to cancel his place out of the tour. But his mom bombarded him with a shitload of reasons that he had to find either Tommy or Jasmine and talk to them otherwise they'll use THE UNCLE aka MOE worker to complain against SB.
Such a simple problem, yet so many things/people are being 牵连 into it. And now he's troubled about having to trouble so many people just because of this matter. Hope this can be solved as quickly as possible.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
@ 10:33 PM
☞ A disgrace
♪ -
Today I made him upset again. It's like an everyday thing now. And as always, it's back to normal again.
Changed the mouldy template. It has been there for 1 year.
Today is Diet Plan Day 1. Ate 水饺面汤 for breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and fish meat soup for dinner. Hope that this dieting plan can go on for 2 months.
Monday, December 04, 2006
@ 10:40 PM
☞ Determined
♪ -
THE GREAT DIETING PLAN SHALL START TOMORROW!
I vow to (applicable to outside food):
1. Eat only soup-based food; or
2. Eat only sandwiches; and
3. No eating of fried food; and
4. No eating of oily food;
5. Eat more fruits and vegetables (especially papaya milkshake)
6. EXERCISE!
Feel like just going downstairs to have a jog or something. Can anyone recomend any home excercise? Skipping? Maybe I'll try that.
Tomorrow I shall try fishball noodle soup!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
@ 11:39 PM
☞ 幸福
♪ -
Today, I shall blog about you and me.
18 months ago, we've just met each other as classmates. 1 month later, we became each other's significant other halves. To many people, including you and me, it's such a fast paced relationship. But I've never regreted about being in this relationship with you. You showered me with care and love, put up with my childish temper and whims, did many things that a wonderful boyfriend could have done. But I continued with my temper and whims, until it eventually hit me. I realised that I was being such a bad girlfriend, neither understanding nor caring, selfish, ill-tempered, and many other bad characters I'd displayed within the past 17 months. At one time, or rather, most of the time, I wonder was I being selfish, making you belong to me, when you can find a better girl hundred times better than me. Yet after all of these meaningless 'arguements', you are still willing to hold me in your arms, telling me gently that you love me no matter what. I feel both guilty yet happy, guilty that you still love me, happy that you still love me.
You apologise even though it's my fault. I know it's my fault, it's always my fault when I am sad or both of us are sad. I know it. When you apologise, I feel even more guilty and I wonder was I being selfish, making you belong to me, when you can find a better girl hundred times better than me.
This afternoon, I know I was being a b*tch. You should have chosen to walk away, you should have chosen to ignore me and let this f*cking b*tch b*tch herself off and pretend not to know her, you should have chosen not to hold hand with this f*cking b*tch when she tugged at your hand, you should throw her hand aside as though it has contagious germs and walk as far as you can. But you didn't. So I did, to ease the guilt, or so I thought. Instead, once I let go of your hand, I feel scared. I feel so alone. I feel so guilty. I broke down. I couldn't help it. To think that one day we might not be able to go on with our lives with each other by our side is too painful. I'm so dependent on you, do you know?
I know you were upset, I kinda sense that you are tired of my temper and whims. I know you forced yourself to smile, I know. But I really hope that you don't have to force yourself to love me.
Magically, as always, everything seems fine again. But deep down, how do you really feel?
After all of these meaningless 'arguements', I am still willing to be held in your arms, listening to you telling me gently that you love me no matter what.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
@ 11:54 PM
☞ Overall Happy
♪ -
Today is the 2nd of December, our 17th month anniversary and of course my brother's birthday.
First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Just in case 你说我没诚意。
The day started off dark and gloomy, and I was wondering whether it'll rain AGAIN or not. Went to Eunice's home to do FF project. At around 5 or 6 p.m. we left for Bedok. To my surprise, it wasn't rainning, it didn't rain at all! In fact it was quite cooling. And so we went to Bedok Sports Complex to have a jog. It's my first time jogging 5 rounds without stopping and walk. Right, I know I have lousy stamina, but anyway...
After jogging, we went to Tampines to have our dinner. Since it's this special day, we decided on Genki Sushi since both of us are having cravings for some sushi and we did not manage to buy some from Edo Sushi earlier on. Let the pictures talk for themselves:
It's the ugly me.
The sushi.
My dear.
The ugly me again.
My dear again.
Trying to feed me with that doremon food.After that, not surprisingly, I managed to spoil the happy day again. But I'm glad that Dear is not upset by it and I'm happy too. =)
Friday, December 01, 2006
@ 10:13 PM
☞ Sleepy
♪ -
Ah yes. These were taken at Pet Safari @ VivoCity yesterday:
These 2 are the cutest.
@ 6:15 PM
☞ Glad
♪ -
Finally, it's over. In MY opinion, the presentation sildes were too wordy and too much content, not much showing of the film itself. No wonder she says our 'findings' were too little.
Ah, never mind. IT'S OVER!
Hope it doesn't rain again tomorrow. I'm
dying to go for a jog.